Hello my 0 followers,
I thought to make a list about me and who I am, just in case anyone gets interested and wants to check out a boring girl talking about her boring life. I won't tell who I am or anything superficially personal, but I'll go deeper than that which is better than just a name or a location.
1. First and most important thing you should know about me: I am not American and English is not my first language. I was born in a country in Europe (that I will tell you) just so you don't judge me when I make writing mistakes. Please forgive me if I say anything wrong that will make you laugh, but hey that is better than being perfect and not make you laugh at all isn't it? LOL?No? Fine.
2. I am not someone who you can trust or get inspired from, I'm just a random girl who likes to talk shit about herself and her friends. (No hard feelings)
3. I love Art; anything related to Art fascinates me and makes me want to explore more.
4. I don't like fake people. You may say "Oh that's such a cliche Emily, everyone doesn't like fake people". Well I know that but for me it is better to be a completely total ASSHOLE than pretend you care. Deal? Okay, moving on.
5. My real name is not Emily, and honestly it's not even close to it. I always liked that name though, and since now I'm writing on a anonymous blog page where I will tell a lot of my deepest secrets (including my friend's secrets that I forever swore to not tell), I decided that my name should be Emily. Why? Because I say so!
6. I'm not depressed, my mom and dad are not divorced or dad, I wasn't quite bullied when I was in high school and I'm not pretending to have a double life to make things harder for myself. I am just W E I R D.
7. I have an older sister which I love and I hate in the same time. Even though we live far away from each other most of the year, we still have that sister connection that no one can break. I think.
8. I truly believe that my best friend is my mother, because I can literally tell her everything. When I say everything, I mean it!
9. I tried to open a couple of blogs, but my last one was discovered by my ex boyfriend who read what I wrote about him in the blog and made me delete the account. Well, what he doesn't know is that I will tell the same stories again, just because I don't give a shit. Kay.
Friday, July 17, 2015
Boredom Souffle with sadness sprinkles :/
Today was such a boring day!
Even though today was supposed to be amazing because it is Eid ( don't get me wrong I don't follow religions but you know the deal), for me it was nothing more than a bowl full of boredom and monotony. Please tell me that you had a similar day at least once too? Anyone? No? Okay :(
It is the middle of the summer and it's supposed to be all about going to the beach and having fun and going crazy but nothing exciting like that is happening to my life right now. I'm sitting in the living room with my mom and my grandmother watching some lame movie about blondes which is worse than staying in the middle of the room without air conditioning. Well friends, I'm doing both of them right now!
My mother is finally being a little tougher with her employees. She owns a pharmacy which is a very profitable business if you ask me, but she treats the girls that work there like they were her daughters. Jealousy is not talking here (ofc) but now in the summer all they want to do is to get out of work earlier or to take more than 1 week of vacations (I think they signed a contract for 6 nights and 7 days) that they originally singed in. Now it has been almost one month since she put cameras at the pharmacy and she's watching them from work. They are good girls don't get me wrong, but they have this obsession with Facebook and social media that is making them not do their job properly. So I just installed a new program in my laptop so that my mom can check on them every time she wants during the day (believe me I'm not a computer freak). Boring story huh? I already told you!
I talked to my boyfriend today only for a while, but since I was already almost dying from boredom, I didn't really text him back. He got a new haircut and he sent me a picture of him; I also told you that he likes to talk about himself.
Honestly I think that the only person who I enjoyed talking with today was my boyfriend's best friend A. He sent me the cutest video ever and I must admit: He's hot ( a.k.a hawt lol?). I'm not one of those types of girls that thinks like that about other guys while in a relationship but A. is my type. This guy has a funny story actually!
Okay listen to this. When I first got out on a "stupid date" with my boyfriend (we were not together that time) he introduced me with his friend A. As soon as I saw him I thought "Wow, he is really the type of guy that I like", but I kept my mouth shut and I didn't say anything. As we were getting to know each other that night, he told me that he was bullied in high school and that my boyfriend was the only one who supported him. He had problems in his family with his mom who was suffering from deep depression, and honestly the depression was getting to him too. A. was shy and cute and that's all the information I got that night.
Wait, this post has gone too far for tonight I think, probably I should get lost in
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Sayonara,
Agatophobia K.
Even though today was supposed to be amazing because it is Eid ( don't get me wrong I don't follow religions but you know the deal), for me it was nothing more than a bowl full of boredom and monotony. Please tell me that you had a similar day at least once too? Anyone? No? Okay :(
It is the middle of the summer and it's supposed to be all about going to the beach and having fun and going crazy but nothing exciting like that is happening to my life right now. I'm sitting in the living room with my mom and my grandmother watching some lame movie about blondes which is worse than staying in the middle of the room without air conditioning. Well friends, I'm doing both of them right now!
My mother is finally being a little tougher with her employees. She owns a pharmacy which is a very profitable business if you ask me, but she treats the girls that work there like they were her daughters. Jealousy is not talking here (ofc) but now in the summer all they want to do is to get out of work earlier or to take more than 1 week of vacations (I think they signed a contract for 6 nights and 7 days) that they originally singed in. Now it has been almost one month since she put cameras at the pharmacy and she's watching them from work. They are good girls don't get me wrong, but they have this obsession with Facebook and social media that is making them not do their job properly. So I just installed a new program in my laptop so that my mom can check on them every time she wants during the day (believe me I'm not a computer freak). Boring story huh? I already told you!
I talked to my boyfriend today only for a while, but since I was already almost dying from boredom, I didn't really text him back. He got a new haircut and he sent me a picture of him; I also told you that he likes to talk about himself.
Honestly I think that the only person who I enjoyed talking with today was my boyfriend's best friend A. He sent me the cutest video ever and I must admit: He's hot ( a.k.a hawt lol?). I'm not one of those types of girls that thinks like that about other guys while in a relationship but A. is my type. This guy has a funny story actually!
Okay listen to this. When I first got out on a "stupid date" with my boyfriend (we were not together that time) he introduced me with his friend A. As soon as I saw him I thought "Wow, he is really the type of guy that I like", but I kept my mouth shut and I didn't say anything. As we were getting to know each other that night, he told me that he was bullied in high school and that my boyfriend was the only one who supported him. He had problems in his family with his mom who was suffering from deep depression, and honestly the depression was getting to him too. A. was shy and cute and that's all the information I got that night.
Wait, this post has gone too far for tonight I think, probably I should get lost in
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Sayonara,
Agatophobia K.
Thursday, July 16, 2015
still 0 followers
Bummer right?
Probably if I told my friends that I had a blog page, they would consider to open one for themselves just to follow me and make me happy, but that is totally what I'm not looking for. Even though I have no followers and maybe, just maybe, 5 page viewers per day (and I swear I'm not including myself), I don't really mind because I am not ready to express myself to people yet (I don't know if that will ever happen).
Anyway, my mom told me two days ago that she doesn't think I am talented. What? Who? Me? Talented? Of course not! I have been writing for myself for about 6 or 7 years now and I never bothered to let anyone check my stuff, just because I ALSO think I'm not talented. All this started when we were arguing about my major. Yay, now you know, I'm in college. When people ask me and I tell them my major is Accounting, they look at me like I'm some kind of genius; a very nice girl that listens to her parents. But when we start going a little bit deeper in the conversation and I tell them that what I really want to do is to take Art classes, they flip out and start to yell at me. I know, I know, English is not on top of the "Perfect Major List" but why can't I at least talk about it? Honestly talking about something you really are passionate about even though it will never happen, makes you feel better because you're sharing what has been on your chest for a long time and gives some of your sadness to the audience fellows.
I think what people are really looking for these days is someone to inspire them and make them stronger, but I don't feel like I'm the "inspiration material" that's why I shut down and change everything to private, to not put in risk anyone's well being (lol?). I see all these people on the internet community ( beauty gurus, youtubers, bloggers) who are giving all these nice important messages to young teenagers and it makes me feel so little, so not ready!
Btw, I think I should break up with my boyfriend. Ugh so random right? But I'm telling you this because he just texted me and I told him that I started writing again and he didn't even ask about it, all he said was "good for you". I know I'm being very superficial, but how can you stay with a person that is not interested in something that you really love, or at least pretend to be. I don't enjoy basketball at all, but he does and whenever he talks about it (and believe me, he talks about it a lot), I listen to him for hours and I even watch games now and then to make him happy. On the other hand, this guy doesn't really care, all he says is something very random and then changes the conversation to the stupid basketball topic again. What do you say fellows should I say goodbye to him? He is a good guy and I like being with him but I don't LIKE HIM. Help?
I feel like I'm rambling and we don't want that right? So I'm just gonna get lost in
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Sayonara,
Agateophobia K.
Probably if I told my friends that I had a blog page, they would consider to open one for themselves just to follow me and make me happy, but that is totally what I'm not looking for. Even though I have no followers and maybe, just maybe, 5 page viewers per day (and I swear I'm not including myself), I don't really mind because I am not ready to express myself to people yet (I don't know if that will ever happen).
Anyway, my mom told me two days ago that she doesn't think I am talented. What? Who? Me? Talented? Of course not! I have been writing for myself for about 6 or 7 years now and I never bothered to let anyone check my stuff, just because I ALSO think I'm not talented. All this started when we were arguing about my major. Yay, now you know, I'm in college. When people ask me and I tell them my major is Accounting, they look at me like I'm some kind of genius; a very nice girl that listens to her parents. But when we start going a little bit deeper in the conversation and I tell them that what I really want to do is to take Art classes, they flip out and start to yell at me. I know, I know, English is not on top of the "Perfect Major List" but why can't I at least talk about it? Honestly talking about something you really are passionate about even though it will never happen, makes you feel better because you're sharing what has been on your chest for a long time and gives some of your sadness to the audience fellows.
I think what people are really looking for these days is someone to inspire them and make them stronger, but I don't feel like I'm the "inspiration material" that's why I shut down and change everything to private, to not put in risk anyone's well being (lol?). I see all these people on the internet community ( beauty gurus, youtubers, bloggers) who are giving all these nice important messages to young teenagers and it makes me feel so little, so not ready!
Btw, I think I should break up with my boyfriend. Ugh so random right? But I'm telling you this because he just texted me and I told him that I started writing again and he didn't even ask about it, all he said was "good for you". I know I'm being very superficial, but how can you stay with a person that is not interested in something that you really love, or at least pretend to be. I don't enjoy basketball at all, but he does and whenever he talks about it (and believe me, he talks about it a lot), I listen to him for hours and I even watch games now and then to make him happy. On the other hand, this guy doesn't really care, all he says is something very random and then changes the conversation to the stupid basketball topic again. What do you say fellows should I say goodbye to him? He is a good guy and I like being with him but I don't LIKE HIM. Help?
I feel like I'm rambling and we don't want that right? So I'm just gonna get lost in
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Sayonara,
Agateophobia K.
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